shades of grey
a moment of folly
relationships in jeopardy
i see more of a looming darkness
of sorrow
of uncertain tomorrows
not to get on any moral high horse
but have you spared a moment
to think about the course
of your actions
the implications
the betrayal
the hurt
the feeling
of looking
into the eyes of a stranger
what you have done
i cannot condone
i cannot accept
the deception
though i may not even want to have the knowledge of
it is not my belief
i wish of some form of relief
from the anguish
the helplessness
the paralysis
of speech
merely the presence
of a hand to hold
nothing to say in your defence
because my words will be lies

after the raging storm
you were so calm
i could not rationalise
myself with you
i felt estranged
from your ideals
frustrated by your naivete
or what i perceived as
maybe you think im the one blinded
not open minded
not receptive as
you
both share the blame
when the discovery came
but blood is thicker
than water
and partly of your insinuations
im left with bitter resentment

towards you
its hard to fault you for this
you have been there through
the struggles, the pitfalls
but more and more
you take her away
more and more
you led her astray
she has her own mind
i know
perhaps its true
she doesnt need any guidance
brainwashed by your principles
your defiance
are you happy now?

pardon me
for being biased
but you have given me reasons
to detest your imposing presence
and the turmoil you caused
the lack of consideration
well good riddance
i cant bear the sight of you
no justification
needed
none will convince
maybe time will heal
but for now
stay away

shades of grey
more of a looming darkness